Two days of good and bad

So yesterday I had this huge plan on going to Walmart to buy a couple of things for myself and just browse the aisles. But my car had a different plan, he decided to place the "check engine" light on and be a butthead. I went to the 76 gas station here in monmouth to see if maybe it was my oil, nope. So tomorrow I have to take my car to a shop here and see what is wrong with it. Hopefully it is something only minor and nothing to serious. Fingers crossed for that.

Today however seems to be doing a bit better. I turned in my application to subway up here and the dude who took my app seemed to really like me. He told me that if he could hire me, he would have. I hope that I can get that job, it would be nice and then I wouldnt have to depend so much on my grandpa and I could start repaying him back. Plus it would help me start saving money in case something like this happens again. So here is to me getting the job.

Saturday is supposed to be a day for sam and I to be together and finally have a night to ourselves. If not then it looks like I will have to wait till February to see him. Which will be awhile for us. I hope everything works out for us. Here is for hoping that there is only something minor with the car and that I get my job so I can pay my grandpa back for all of this!

First of the Year

So Christmas went off with a hit, I worked things out with my step mom and what not. So there really isnt much happening now, we are on good terms. The start of Christmas break wasnt what I really wanted, I ended up moving out of my sisters house and am now homeless. But I would rather be homeless then be living with her damn psycho a$$. I will just see where the road takes me for right now.

It is now the start of a new year and with a new year there are goals that we set for myself. This year for myself I have made my goals be the following:

• Lose a bit of weight
• Be a better girlfriend
• Not curse as much
• read more books
• and make deans list.

So the whole Lose weight issue is mainly for me to at least feel better about myself. Sure my boyfriend says I look beautiful the way I am, but I dont feel it. So I am going to do what it is that i need to do what makes me happy.

Now being a better girlfriend. How I feel about that is that I haven't been the best girlfriend to my boyfriend and i dont like that. It makes me sad. I feel like I am actually losing him at times. And yeah I know that I can be quick to anger but I am trying.. I just dont want to lose him. He really is a sweet guy, immature at times, but he is my love.

Cursing, simple, I just dont need to do it anymore.

Reading more books as easy as it says.

Making deans list- so last term I had a 2.73 gpa, it also reflected from what I had in previously. I just need to work harder, and I will.