i'm tired

things have been rough, i will admit that. but i wish that they would go back to the way they had used to be. where i didn't have a worry at all, where i could be strong. but it seems like i've been dwindling down some. i don't know what my problem. i'm just glad that sam is here to help me along the way. i think that with out him, i would be someplace dark. things really need to lighten up more. i am tired of all the dark, tired of how the weather makes me feel down all the time, how i feel so emotional, insecure about things, feeling like nothing i do seems right, how i feel left out and in the backseat at times. i just want the sun to shine and things to go back to normal. the feeling of happiness and love.

i'm sorry i just needed to rant really babdly about things...and this seemed like the only way that i could do it