seems like day and night

not much really to say at the moment. its about midnight and i have a lot on my mind. i guess i won't be getting any sleep tonight thanks to the amount of stress that i have been under lately. Though i do have to say that thanks to my boyfriend. I'm not as stressed. Thanks to an amazing date tonight babe had fun.

But now for you all to really understand the shit that i have been going through at home lately has caused me to have less sleep, i have felt that at times it has put a strain on my relationship ( but thanks to a really understanding boyfriend, i don't have to worry about things), been having to watch what i do or say every minute, and i have thought of just leaving my mom for a few days to escape my step mom.

So all of this is going down for one damn reason. And thats because i don't have a job. Reason for it is because not a lot of people have been hiring. But i did get some good news today. Two of the places that i turned apps into are hiring. So i'm expecting a call sometime tomorrow and friday. I hope to get either one really. Though i was hoping for the job at coldstone. At this point i don't care. As long as it gets my step mom off my back.

Because in all honesty, i'm tired of all the shit that goes on here. I shouldn't have to hide what i do or anything. Yet with her here thats all i do. Plus everyday i seem to be getting in trouble. Its bullshit!!!!! Sorry that i'm not perfect! That i'm not what you want me to be! I just want her to be gone and out of our lives. i'm tired of watching my mom hurt over her. And because over her, i did the one thing that i swore i would never do......