just like a fairy tale

so i haven't been on lately for the simple fact is, that i'm now working. I like my job, but it wasn't my first choice. Things have been ok, i can tell that one of my co workers don't like me. I really don't know why though, i haven't done anything to her. but all well i guess. i'm just worried that i'm not going to be able to spend time with my bf.

my step mom is being a b***h about things. she thinks that all i do is spend time with him, thats not true. i spend time with my friends and everything. and another thing that seems to be eating her is the age difference between him and i. its only about one or two years depending on the time. its just bugging me.

well i got to go

love ally

seems like day and night

not much really to say at the moment. its about midnight and i have a lot on my mind. i guess i won't be getting any sleep tonight thanks to the amount of stress that i have been under lately. Though i do have to say that thanks to my boyfriend. I'm not as stressed. Thanks to an amazing date tonight babe had fun.

But now for you all to really understand the shit that i have been going through at home lately has caused me to have less sleep, i have felt that at times it has put a strain on my relationship ( but thanks to a really understanding boyfriend, i don't have to worry about things), been having to watch what i do or say every minute, and i have thought of just leaving my mom for a few days to escape my step mom.

So all of this is going down for one damn reason. And thats because i don't have a job. Reason for it is because not a lot of people have been hiring. But i did get some good news today. Two of the places that i turned apps into are hiring. So i'm expecting a call sometime tomorrow and friday. I hope to get either one really. Though i was hoping for the job at coldstone. At this point i don't care. As long as it gets my step mom off my back.

Because in all honesty, i'm tired of all the shit that goes on here. I shouldn't have to hide what i do or anything. Yet with her here thats all i do. Plus everyday i seem to be getting in trouble. Its bullshit!!!!! Sorry that i'm not perfect! That i'm not what you want me to be! I just want her to be gone and out of our lives. i'm tired of watching my mom hurt over her. And because over her, i did the one thing that i swore i would never do......

not much of a title

so its the weekend, and its been pretty borring. Though i have had some fun. On friday i got to have one of my best friends come over and we got to hang out for a while before we went swimming. It was nice getting to see her and talk to her. Later we went swimming were she met up with another one of my best friends and her brother. which happens to be my friends crush. so i spent the whole time there watching her flirt with him, and what not. My friend sammy and i discussed our trip up to OSU this coming friday. Which is going to be fun since its both of ours dream school. saturday i dealt with my step mom being in complete bitch mode.... and i got to escape for a while i went to look whose on third with some friends and was there for a while. When i came home i really didn't do much ecxpet text my friends and bf. Now its sunday and i'm waiting for it to be six so i can see my boyfriend. we have a small thing planned for tonight ^^ not only for us, but for our families to get to know each other

An amazing day

well really my title can't even describe the last couple of days. But i can honestly say that lately i have been sitting at the highest peak. I got to hang out with him today, and it was simply amazing. but every day with him is amazing. We hung out at my place and watched one of his favorite movies, did a little making out, and talked about things.

I know that lately all that my blog has been about is my boyfriend, but really has truely made me so happy. He really means a lot to me. He has been there for me when i really needed someone, and he has seen me in my darkest hour. something that i don't like letting people see. but he didn't run like most people.

Babe i just want you to know, its been two amazing months and its going to be many more of them to come. Each day our love grows so much stronger and like you said. only time is standing with us for that day to come. ^^

I love you sam

coming home, a re-cap of the weekend

so i finally get to come home today. right now though i'm at my friends grandparents house waiting to go home. Its been nice to be able to to go camping. Thats our thing together. each summer thats what we look foreward to,. it doesn't matter how crapy the school year has gotten or how good its going. we are always looking forward to it. ^^ lol.
so this is how the camping trip went:
we got there late, and i swear that by the time that we got there the bugs just wanted a taste of us. cause the moment that i stepped out of the car i got eaten alive!!! after that we pitched our tent and got ready for bed. The next day we got into our bikini's and went straight for the water, it was already like 100 degrees out. so on friday we stayed in the watre for a while, later as the day went on i was missing my boyfriend, but we stayed in the water. that night we made smores and all the good stuff. momo, rii, and i decided to hang out down at the party camp. somewhat of a good idera but not quite. Than on saturday, we stayed the whole day in our bikini's and i got a little burnt. well little doesn't cut it...... and my poor boobs got some sun. later in the day, cody, momo, rii. aunt sara, aunt linda, and i went out in the boat and we all got to drive it. it was so much fun!!!!! though momo had to break the boat on our way back in. lol. when we finally got back to the beach i went back up to the camp cause i was hugry since i hadn't eaten anything all day and i had been swimming all day and being in the sun. Well by than rii, momo, and i got changed and went down to a private beach to be alone, well.......... we went back out in the water in our close and rii and i sort of decided to have some fun... and skinny dip. lol
than came to be sunday. we packed up and left, all of us girls having bikini tans and all that good stuff. now i'm sitting in teh house waiting to go home and being able to be with my boyfriend.!!!!!
through out it all i had a lot of fun and what not, and i'm glad that i got to talk with sam for a while!!!!

oh and the new camp rule is now: we are not allowed to take phones with us the next time we go camping.

Dad is being a huge ass about things and being pissy :(

calling you

so when i went away to camp my boyfriend wrote me a letter and on the back of the letter he wrote down some of his favorite love song lyrics. well when i got home i wanted to listen to one of the songs, and now i have to say that its my favorite song, i would almost call it "our song"

Calling you by Blue october

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away
And if I've said it a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

So expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make a smile

[Chorus]
I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me
I can't believe you actually picked me

I thought that the world had lost it's sway
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave and send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile?
To make a smile

i love this song. thank you babe ^^

camping

today has been the absoulotly the best day ever. thanks to my boyfriend, i don't know how i got this lucky, but i have to say that i am one lucky girl. not only did i get to spend like the whole day with sam, but i also got to go hang out with one of my best friends today over at the college since she gets to have visitations on wedsndays ^^

so the out look of the next couple days look like this

Thursday: finish packing and doing chores before i leave, text my boyfriend, leave for friends house, pack the trailer, leave for cresent lake

Friday: wake up, swim, miss my boy, tan (maybe burn), talk with momo, fire

saturday: same as friday

Sunday: maybe pack up and go to kitties grandma's house

Monday: i might come home.

so yeah thats what the next couple of days look like.