Ready to just cry

So today has really just been a shitty day. I am blamed for something that I felt was fine and now I am being austrized within my hall and am being left to be a hermit in my own room. Now I am not that kind of a person, normally i'm really social and love being out with people and when I can't I feel stir crazy.

And then there is things with Sam. I'm happy that he is going to PSU and what not but now i'm scarred. Hes going to be around a crap ton of girls and shit could happen. Plus it now puts distance between us once again. And i'm also getting upset that i'm the one who is always being sweet and putting a fake smile on my face. i'm getting to that point of just saying screw it and let him be sweet from here on out. I just feel like hes being insensitive and not remembering i'm his girlfriend.